Question of Hopes and Dreams

I was dreaming of working for NGO organisation since I was in high school year. A year after my graduation from UBU, I decided to move to work in Bangkok, which is a place that I never dream of living before, I finally am making it here at TVS (Thai Volunteer Service Foundation), currently working as a co-ordinator for the Collaboration for Young Generation in Mekong Region, working here I am using English alot in writing, speaking, listening and reading, I will be traveling both nationwide and around Mekong Region countries alot, I'll be writing feature articles and taking photograph a lot. What else could I ask for me??

Am I living a dream? What about all the dreams that I left behind in Ubon???

Working here is not that difficult and not that easy, but it is challenging for me. Not only the knowledge of English that I have will enable me to work for TVS. But I still need to learn all kinds of social problems in Thailand, neighboring countries and the world. I have to know about human right, environments, peace, violence, local wisdom, cultures, FTA, volunteerism and so many other issues that I have to learn and to turn professional if possible.

So, I think that earning a master degree is a need now, which I never thought before. I believe I am kind of being on the right track, I think that working for TVS will help me to think of which way I should turn to in term of professional choice....but I still do not know what I really want to do in the future...NGOs? Magazine? Photographer? Teacher? Writer? Interpreter/ translator? English Crazy Club Org?

Am I living a dream? What happens I really love working here? What about people and all the dreams I left behind in Ubon - they are waiting for me? What should I do?

Am I caught in the middle? I am.... after six-month time is over. I think I will know what my answers to this question is all about!

In between hope and dream...

-Netting
21 August 2008
Huay Kwang, Bangkok

Discovering Me - A Daughter of Isaan Commuity!

for Myself and Everyone I Know

Traveling is one of the best teachers
who help me discovering my spirit
and my soul answering the call to who I am,
what I am and where I’m coming from

Since I’ve traveled to many several
countries in Southeast Asia and especially
in the Mekong countries and
finally I’ve found my own ‘cultural root’,
deeply realizing that
I’m a daughter of Isaan community,
a woman of Asia,
the owner of Eastern civilization
and a young citizen of the ‘changing world’
I’m a dreamer and a believer of this era.

Wandering around, meeting and talking to the locals
and listening to their stories.
I’ve gained a deeper appreciation of my
culture and people of their simplicity of
relaxed, slow, harmonious life.
And I can’t wait to tell other about this.

I am dreaming of leaving my work
to lying in the happy hammock
and relax under the mango tree,
telling those wonderful stories
through the eyes of mine as a young
blood writer and an aspiring photographer.


In the end
my heart
will find
home of
Isaan community